scroll over that girl and boyy
Monday, February 28, 2005
22:17
okies. great. i'm now curious bout sth.
roy~ hmm d0es ur msn nick refer t0 mi.? s0rrie. if i sound harsh the 0ther time.but wth. if ur nick aint referrin to mi now den gd for mi l0hz. but if it is. i gt n0 c0mments. s0 yeah. hahas. if u r still angry wif mi. i dunn0 wad t0 sae le. 0ther den. frens? n errrm c00l d0wn. juz dun wanna bec0me enemies n stuff la. if u read this. s0me h0w 0r rather let mi kn0e we r still frens k? if u
ch00se nt t0 ans den s0 be it ba. take cares.
t0dae was great.? results was okies. juz quite disappointed wif emaths. tats all. n guess wad?! after 2 freakin l0ng years i pass my amths la.! i'm s0 happie can. hahaas. after tt i went ps t0 watch sh0w wif gal. hide n seek.! nice sh0w! g0 catch it.! its unpredictable. l0lx.kinda la. i had fun gg out.!! hahas. i'm glad i'm nt f0rg0tten c0s l0ts 0f peeps msg mi gd luck n ask mi b0ut mi grades. s0 yeahs i'm happie. but my gd gd fren din msg mi la.! hahas. perhaps he is angry. but its okies.! =D l0lx. t0 all th0se doin o's this year. jia you.! t0 th0se wh0 r sad and disappointed. press 0n and l00k f0rward.! c0s at the end 0f the dae its ur 's' level cert. tt matter most. jia you.! and smile. i'm tired. i'm nt havin enuff slp.! hahas.ytd was fun.! great.! whee~! oh yah we reached sch bout 2 hours earlier and we toured round the wh0le sch la. hahas. it feels gd to be back.
nich0las~ dun s0und s0 sad la. cheer up a little. ur lame partner is here t0 lame wif u le.! hahas. take l0ts 0f care n cyaz s00n.! better get int0 mjc h0h.! i wanna see u dere.!! l00kf0rward. dun l00k back. u did ur bez! =D at least sth happie happen t0 u t0dae.
shuyi~ hahas. h0pe t0 cyaz tml.! i miss u la.! l0lx.take l0ts 0f care. =)
galvin~ did i manage t0 cheer u up a little? hahas.u owe me a meal h0h.! h0pe ur frens din misunderstand us. aniwae i enjoyedthe sh0w.
SLJRYEK~ well d0ne peeps. i guess everyone is happie wif their results.! h0pe u all will get into the jc or poly u wan to.! l0ve ya peeps n cya s00n.!=D tyhanks f0r ytd. it wad fun.!! hahas.! thanks f0r helpin mi throught this time.! take care.!
* weird c0l0ur c0mbi*
dun ask mi y i'm nt slpin now.
hahas. the reason is simple. dere r lotrs of peeps at my hse now. we gonna watch showtill tml morn? hahas. den breakfast. den results. wonder how will i fair. but i'm nt gonna tink bout it. so yeah. jf.foo.jess.ken.yc.rach. r like watching sh0w n0w? n i'm happily bloggin n chattin.! =))
okies. life s0 far has been okies. my frens r dere f0r mi. thanks peeps.! i guess i juz nid slighly more time. perhaps juz a little bit more n i will be totally okies.! yay-ness.! thanks pple.! did nth much todae. stone around at home. watch tb. yeah. and tot of some things. but yups. i'm nt gonna allow sadness to invade mi.! hahas. its my policy f0r n0w.!!! whee~!~! i wanna g0 play p00l.!!!! i still wanna play.! hahas. wanna watch m0vies t00.!!! *mel screams* single life ain tt bad afterall.!!! hahas. guess tats f0r n0w.! g0nna j0in dem le.! cyaz.!
nich0las~ i dun like the rat h0h. u evil.!! l0lx. 0kies. gd luck f0r tml n take care.!! thanks f0r lamin wif mi.
shuyi~ i w0nder hw u r feelin n0w. h0pe u r okies. tok to u s00n n gdluck.!!!
galvin~ heys.! tml will be a gd dae f0r ya.! every gdbye is a less0n t0 be learn. s0 remember! cheer up boi.! ur frens will alwaes be dere f0r ya. take care n gd luck! cyaz.!!!
swt~ oh man.! i miss u.! y r u nt here.!!! hahas. okies. cya tml.! gd luck n god bless. h0pe u enj0y ur cruise.! =) cyaz!
Saturday, February 26, 2005
11:36
hey.! swt! s0rrie f0r wakin ya up s0 early. anyway thanks f0r t0kin t0 mi. i feel s0 much betta.
jf.! thanks f0r all the advice n stuff.! take l0ts 0f care.!
jess.! thanks f0r acc0mpanyin mi out. u get my mind off stuff n i enjoyed myself.!
yc.! thanks f0r helpin mi pack all the stuff. had a gd tok wif ya t00.! and remember the cds.! thanks ger.! help mi thank ur boi boi too k?!
shu yi n galvin.! thanks f0r all the care n c0ncern. i'm fine. s0 dun w0rry b0ut mi. and u 2. betta s0rt things out s00n ya. dun make mi w0rry.! =))
nich0las.! hahas. thanks f0r ur lame-ness la. it gets my mind 0ff stuff t00.! h0pe u aint late in meetin ur frens t0dae.! =D
roy! as i said nt a th0usand s0rries wld d0 anithing. but i guess i shall learn t0 f0rgive n f0rget. it aint ani0nes fault.! but still, i wun be able t0 f0rget wad ya did. u kn0e i hate guys playin wif feelins n givin false h0pe. but i guess ya did tt unkn0wingly. n it hurts al0t. and it neber occured to mi tt u will be the one. aniwae from now on, mean wad ya sae.! n every gdbye is a less0n t0 be learnt. aniwae thanks f0r all the mem0ries u gave mi. n as wad c00kie b0x sae. your right ger will c0me at the right time.! s0 all the bez.! =D w0 bu za0 hu tian chang di jiu. wo zhi zao hu chen jin yong you. s0 yah. thanks f0r the 1 yr plus. its been the bez time 0f my life.! n tats f0r sure.! all th0se mem0ries will be kept cl0se t0 mi n n01 will be able t0 take it way frm mi. thanks boy. 0ne last big bear hug.! -huggies- enj0y ur life.! n haf fun.! the next time i see u. i want t0 see u smiling. leadin ur life the way it shld be.! perhaps, wif the ger tt is rrly right f0r ya.! as f0r mi, i'm g0nna m0ve 0n wif life.! s0 dun pull mi back 0n the bridge tt i'm walkin. lastly, g0d bless n take l0ts 0f care.! n f0r the past 1 yr plus, i juz wanna kn0e let ya kn0e tt i rrly l0ve ya.! but fr0m n0w, i'm g0nna start a wh0le new life n a brand new mi. 0h yah! n c0ntinue searching f0r my guy.! =D cyaz.!
Friday, February 25, 2005
10:17
okies.previous entry "deleted". words taken back.
this entry is up to u pple whether u want to read or not.
s0 here it g0es,
u r such a ^&*(). i gt n0 w0rds t0 describe u. my heart is numb.! i was very angry n sad. but swt calm mi down so i dunno wad to type now. shall update when i feel the same again. thanks swt.!
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
23:08
went t0 play badmint0n wif mjc peeps todae n i gt a blister! -.-"" g0sh. den went t0 eat pizza hut wif CG grp den play p00l.! whee~! my sec0nd time playin. c00l ehs.! but i still prefer the first time tt i played. hahas. =P after tt galvin n shuyi came 0ver t0 my hse. n nich insist tt i'm extra.! =/ i'm nt k?! hahas.
juz h00k 0ff the f0ne wif him. g0nna meet him in sch tml.! whee~! bef0re tt i'm meeting jess t0 g0 t0 the CPF b0ard t0 get her singpass d0ne. g0nna g0 wild wild wet tml. but it seemslike very very little pple is gg. s0 i dunn0 h0w le. sianz. tml den decide ba. =)) tats all.
b0i~ yeps juz h00k 0ff the f0ne wif ya. nt v. happie t0 kn0e tt u aint havin the m00d f0r anithing. rather w0rried. but i bleaf u will get 0ver it s00n. i guess guys n gers tink differently bout the msg-ing stuff. but i'm glad to kn0e b0ut tt. baby. chill k?! i kn0e ya did tt f0r the gd 0f ur br0. nid a listening ear juz call mi. i din exactly understand wad ya mean by n0 faith. but i din dare t0 ask. dunn0 y. guess the w0rd is rather sensitive. i dunn0. n0 faith in us or no faith in wad. i guess todae had to be the dae tt i tell u he resembles u alot tats y i felt tt way. but i guess mi feelin tt way was a wrong move. a very big mistake. a mistake tt br0ught mi l0ts 0f regrets. tats y he will neber be my guy. i will neber like him. he juz aint u s0 wad if he resembles u. it means nth n0w. was rather sh0ck when ya sae tt she resembles mi. but guess tats wad i felt the 0ther time. s0 its alrite. i cant sae much. s0metimes i rrly w0nder if we will ever be back agn. and where d0 i stand in ur heart. i dunn0. guess u nid time. d0 u? tats y i din ask. din mention anithing. morever u said tt u dun seem to be in the mood for r/s or sth like tt. s0 yeps. but b0y i will still be dere. s0me0ne wh0m u can tell ur w0rries t0. i miss u badly. will my dream ever c0me true? or will we remain frens 4eva.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
16:30
hahas. i'm waitin for ogl meetin to start at 520pm n my less0ns end at 245pm la.!
okies. everything has been gg on smoothly todae other den i "exploded" durin chem less0n. hahas. it reminds mi of the time when i tok back to mrs yap when i was in sec 2.! l0lx. its been a few yrs since i did tt. -.-"" this time i was kinda raise my voice at my klassmate. but it wasnt exactly my fault c0s she kinda blame the wh0le klass f0r being n0t responsive n stuff when we say it was okies la.! irritating. but wadeva, she aint worth mi getting mad for. hahas. onli my close frens n him r worth mi getting mad for. -bleahz-
i w0nder h0ws things gg 0n f0r SLJRYEK. =)) h0pe dey r fine.! =D and yeps sch end at 930 tml.!! whee~! after tt i'm g0nna play badmint0n n out wif my CG.! yeahs. i dun wanna stay h0me the next few daes, s0 peeps ask mi out if u nid accomapny.! i nid a break frm sch.! =P
guess tats all f0r n0w. shall bl0g m0re later.! 0h yeah.! i scored 0 for my chem test.. cosss.... i wasnt in sch. h0w dumb rite.! -.- g0sh.!
b0i~ dun get mad 0ver mr w0ng k? nt w0rth it. calm d0wn.! 0h yeah. all the bez f0r tml t00.! hahas. jia you.! (d0esnt this remind u 0f s0me0ne else t00.?!) n i still wana g0 0ut h0h.! -bleahz- * g0sh. mel is gettin naggy n err irritating?!?!* hahas. 2 m0re daes till ur test end. i shall help u c0untd0wn.! =Pp h0pe t0 t0k t0 u later. f0r n0w, c0ntinue muggin hard.! MLR.! i i u.!
Monday, February 21, 2005
17:41
finally sch's 0ver. ha. and i'm d0ne wif my ec0ns test.! whee~ 0h wells. i tink i'm g0nna screwed it up. 0h yeahs. i pass my n0 b0undaries chinese test.! haahs. quite pr0ud 0f myself.?! =)) l0lx. every0ne's t0kin b0ut 0 level results 2dae.! 0h man. i nid a break. i cant imagine wad will happen tt dae. =/ sianz 1/2. nth much happen t0dae t00. 0ther den i skipped chinese less0n agn n the teacher cant be b0thered le. s0rry huang la0 shi.! hahas. i read the seventeen magazine n dey sae tt " you r gg to be extremely upset when a fren lets u down on 2nd march. But before u banish her from your life or abandon the frenship, deal wif ur anger in a healthy way, and look at the situation from her point of view. You'll see that the painful choice she made has hurt her more than it hurt u." goodness.! this better nt be true. whether its a her or him, i dun wanna l0se any frens.! =( g0sh. i tink tats all f0r n0w. m0re tml.! =D
galvin~ thanks f0r tt tip. hahas. it helped. =P s0rry din meet u and claresta during lunch.! cya peeps tml.!
shu yi~ darlin.! did 'my courage" did any magic? anyway i bleaf tt this will be 0ver s00n.! s0 hang 0n.! n keep tt smile 0n ur face. nt the fake smile h0h.!
boi~ hmm hang 0n n jia you.! test wld be 0ver in 3 days time n u can start playin le. study hard h0h. dun let urself d0wn.! =D aniwae, i dun haf much faith in myself la c0s i kn0e i kinda screwed up my o's. s0 yah. juz h0pe miracles will happen.! =)) 0h yah.! i still wanna watch my hide n seek sh0w.! l0lx. kidding.! hahas. sry din wake u up t0dae.!! 0h yeah.! u brighten up my saturdae.!! hahas. =)) t0k t0 u later.! take care! h0pe u manage t0 buy ur stuff.! as usual u make mi smile.! =D !stunekilunissim cyaz s00n.! =)
Sunday, February 20, 2005
15:59
SHAG.!
ha.went to meet the gers to go SAJC fun fair. met jess dere.! hahas. =) spent m0st 0f my $$ 0n f00d. saw the 2 tallest man on earth dere agn.! next, we went to jf hse to pack her chalet stuff. and den we took a cab down to my hse. after mi hse, jf swt jess mi yc n sherman took cab d0wn t0 white sands. n i gt n0 idea why the driver drop us off at the park. -.-"" l0lx. after tt we met russ and ben. at hmm cold storage or izzit NTUC.? ahh.! i cant remember.! -.- next stop. chalet.! ( on the way we dere we were tinkin all the movies tt start frm A and all the way to Z ) the m0ment i reached dere i was blued to the stone chair.! s0rry peeps.! i onli had wif the clearin up. feel kinda bad but i'm damn tired la. played tai dee alm0st the wh0le nite t00.! oh yah.! b0i.! i was a gd ger k! c0s i din drink last nite.! hahas. =)) was supp0se t0 take a cab back h0me.. but.. i end up stayin 0ver! at least i had fun.!but i'm s0 g0nna flunk my ec0ns test la. haven study yet.! =x went h0me wif jess early in the m0rn. yc and rach left wif us t00 c0s dey nid t0 g0 t0 church. n i'm feelin kinda grouchy?! c0s i dun haf enuff slp last nite.!! p.s. i tink rach jess n me slept the m0st. -.-"" the air c0n was t00 c0ld la.! s0 yah. =x came h0me and slept fr0m 10 - 1 but i'm still tired.! s0rry br0 f0r screamin at u juz n0w.! hahas. i'm h0me al0ne n0w. all 0f dem went f0r buffet.! tink tats all.! g0nna g0 d0 my w0rk le.!
yc~ thanks f0r the tee shirt. will return u another dae.
sljrye~ thanks f0r ytd.! i had fun! cya gers 0n thurs.!
boi~ all the best f0r tml c0mm0n test.! hmm cya s00n.! hahas. take care.! uoyssim. n u did ur best ytd.! =)) hahas. oh yah. thanks f0r tt "morning call" l0lx. =PP
Friday, February 18, 2005
20:30
gosh. todae is tiring.! but at the same time its fun t00.! hahas. sch end at 115 t0dae. whee~!~! after tt i had MMM meeting f0r a while. den went t0 tampines mall to watch movie wif shu yi n galvin.! thanks f0r tt h0t d0g treat.! hahas. =) hahas. i tot i din step into TM b4. but i was wrong. cos i realise tt u were the 1st pers0n tt i went TM wif. =P went to watch seoul raiders. nt bad. but the next sh0w tt i wanna watch is HIDE N SEEK.! hahas. f0ll0wed by MR HITCH n l0ts m0re.!!! =PP i m0vie sia0 le. hahas. after the sh0w we went back t0 sch f0r regulus meetin.! it endde bout errmm 7 plus.? reach h0me b0ut 8 plus. wad a l0ng dae. still g0nna wake up early tml t0 g0 t0 SA funfair. but i dun mind wakin up early c0s i kn0e i'm g0nna haf l0ts 0f fun wif the gers.!! yeahs.! dey g0nna c0me my hse after sa fun fair. mi hse gt buffet.! hehes. might be gg dos chalet after tt ba. i dunn0 lei. but still i wish to meet ya somedae. =)
gers~ hmm cya peeps tml.! dun be late n take care. -hugs-
shuyi~ i haf faith u will b readin this s0 yah. n0 matter wad ur decision is i will support u.! f0ll0w ur heart.! d0 wad ya tink is right. if ya nid a listening ear juz gif mi a call.! =)) take care.! -hugs-
boi~ as usual i had a great tok wif ya. u never fail to make mi smile.! =) okies. i shall nt slp forever cos i wanna see u.! =) h0pe u mean wad ya sae on the fone ytd. ( d0 u still remember wad ya sae?!) l0lx. =Pp haf a gd rest k? and all the best tml.! jia you.! haf s0me faith in urself man. u can make it de.! wif s0me MLR magic everything will go well. i hope. =)) mm msg mi when u r d0ne.?! take care boi.! cya.! IIU. -hugs-
Thursday, February 17, 2005
20:40
yeahs.! i can use the net again.! =)) whee~!~! hahas. glad t0 hear ur v0ice agn. hahas. =) yeps i stayed home todae. went to the temple wif grandma. dad. n aunt. after tt we went tekka market to makan.! yummy.! i miss my prawn noodles.!! l0lx. childh00d mem0ries.~! i miss being a kid. n0 w0rries n a simple mind. all my frens seem s0 w0rried b0ut their O's result which is g0nna be release 0n fri. i w0nder if i will breakd0wn. if i did, will it be tears 0f j0y 0r regrets. will u be dere to lend mi a shoulder?! damn. i dun wanna tink b0ut next fri. oh yah.! i went 0n a date wif my dad t0dae.!! we went t0 watch c0nstantine.! nice sh0w.! whee~!
gal~ dun tink s0 much le. relak.! deres a reas0n f0r everything tt happen.
jf and jess.~ get well s00n.! ha, cya peeps on sat.! take care n miss u.! drink plenty of water.!
wt~ i shall nt be bias n type u sth.! h0w's life?! miss ya n take care.! shall we haf a SLJM outing s00n? hahas
b0i.~ i dunn0 wad t0 sae other den.. i cant stop tinkin bout u. if i had a choice i wld ch00se t0 slp f0rever. c0s its only when i'm slpin i can dream of u and mi. aniwae cya s00n.! haf a gd rest.!!! dun feel s0 tired le. rest early.! =)) h0pe t0 meet ya errmm tml.? hahas. *dreaming*
ahhh..! wanted t0 p0st s0me lyrics. but it will make this entry super l0ng. s0 f0rget it.! -.-
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
11:28
yeps. a miracle happen todae. ha. u know wad i mean. lolx. yah u r nice la. =D hmm i supposedly havin chinese lesson now.! -.-"" l0lx.
reached home bout 8 plus ytd. s0 late la. den was havin a headache. and as usual i went to bed w/o eating a panadol. n guess wad happen.? i woke up at 3am t0 eat a pandaol c0s it hurts alot. so yah i onli had 2 hours plus of slp.? kinda tired now. tonite still gt the praying thing at 12 midnight.! =P ha. sigh. i dun tink i'm g0nna g0 f0r d0uble t later c0s my left leg has been hurting since ytd. i h0pe i din pull ani muscle. =/ ha.
hmm i dunn0 wad else t0 bl0g le! s0 gers.! can tell mi if we gg wet and wild tml mahz? c0s i'm nt gg sch. tell mi the details k?! thanks.! =))
boi~ i had fun tokin to u ytd. thanks f0r brightening up my dae! =)) l0lx. u take lots of care. h0pe t0 cya real s00n.! =D all the best.! n i guess dis entry shld be happier rite?! oh yah. last yr everydae was a vdae.! hahas. u kn0e wad i mean.! =)) tok to u later. miss ya.! happie studying.!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
00:04
okies. i'm bloggin in my sch library.! ha. i'm notti again cos i skipped econs lecture.n this com is workin damn wols la. -.-"" yups. was out till quite late ytd. reach h0me b0ut 9 plus.! ha. went to watch i d0 i d0 wif val, hui lin n jia qi. its an all gers otuing.! NO GUYS.! =P l0lx. the sh0w was okies. quite predictable.! =D ha. everywhere i g0 i see c0uples. i see fl0wers. s0 sweet can. ha. =)) was tinkin h0w i spend my past vdae n heres a recap.!
sec1- went 0ut wif l0ts 0f gers n only 1 guy(russ) t0 watch s0me0ne like u.
sec2- after x-country went out wif jj and frens to food junction
sec3- after x-country? went wif wei ch00n. wanting. jinfen. jess. syed. clar. n l0ts m0re t0 j8 mac den jess hse.
sec4- went 0ut wif my one n only boi. haha. it was great.!! =D
J1- hmm kinda dateless. s0 went 0ut wif ger frens.!
oh yah happie 1 yr t0 wan ting n edwin.! jia you.! remember if u all r unhappy bout some things tok this out.! dun keep it to urself.! take care.
hahas. boi. i'm such a gd morning call person rite?! l0lx. hmm u take care of urself h0h. n study hard.! c0mm0n test round the c0rner le.! oh yah.! play hard t00.! i h0pe to cya on the 19 but i kn0e u gt RP thingy s0 yeps. =/ tok to u s00n.! miss ya l0ts.! =)) jia y0u.! i'm glad ya trust mi. =) s0rrie if i s0und fierce. but i'm innocent. n0 idea why ur fren did tt. but its okies as long as u trust mi. =))
tats all f0r n0w. shall update another dae. c0s my dad pluck out the internet line at h0me c0s he's repairing his frens c0m? i dunn0 la. s0 cya.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
14:24
hurting.
yeps. ytd was great. i was happie. shall nt elaborate y. went orchard wif jess! hahas.thanks f0r the ride home ger. =)
i'm startin t0 fear rejections.but i'm still nt giving up h0pe. juz a word can make mi feel s0 much. perhaps god is telilin mi tt i shld haf treasure u m0re rite frm the start. and i still dun like c00kie b0x k! the sight 0f "it" juz reminds mi wad happen. damn. but i wun explode. I DUN LIKE COOKIE BOX.!! n i'm nt hating " it" how i
wish fate wld do mi some miracles now.! i love u. miss u. i rrly d0.
had a tok wif my parents last nite. if dey r smart dey shld understand hw much u meant to mi. i mean its s0 0bvious.! -.- n u. dun control mi. cos u cant.! dun treat mi as though i'm ur gf of sth. i dun like it. u will never be him. NEVER.! i shall nt be as evil n d0 wad my parens ask mi t0 d0. c0s dey ask mi t0 tell u t0 gif mi a break.! i aint urs. never will i be.
the heart has the most freedom. it can ch00se where it wants t0 g0.. s0 wheres ur heart g0ing? mine. t0 him.
Friday, February 11, 2005
17:08
my aunt's doggy rrly has a temper.! -.-" i was juz about to pat her when she opened her mouth wide open n yah. she NEARLY bit my hand.! =x scary. first time siaz. maybe cos' i stink tats y she dun all0w mi t0 t0uch her. -.-"" sch's super b0rin t0dae. l0ts 0f pple pon.! and guess wad i skipped econs lect.? screwed my GP presentation n gt a "scoldin" frm my chem tutor. the 2nd half of dae wad like =/ thank g00dness msging u neber fails to brighten ups my dae. =)) hehe. n yeps. i'm suppose t0 be in sch attending the ogl thingy now.. but i said tt i gt CNY visitng s0 cant make it. =PP n0tti me. went j8 t0 buy s0me things wif galvin n shuyi.! feel like a lightbulb.?! but wadeva.! we are frens!! =) -bleahz- g0nna g0 0ut f0r dinner later. yeah. ytd was my w0nderful n happie dae. regardless of whether its in the aftern00n 0r the nite. i'm happie. hahas. i guesss u knoe y. can u repeat wad u sae on the fone last nite.?i was kinda deaf. hahas. kidding.! * mel w0nders. did i hear the wr0ng thing? h0pe my ears aint playin tricks on mi. -.-" * l0lx. 0h yah. boi~! have fun in bugis t0dae.! dun l00k till ur eyes pop out h0h.! n n0 c00kie b0x.!!!!!!!!!! =PP s0rry. din pick up ur call juz n0w. wanted t0 call back. but its like kinda farnie callin s0me0ne else hse t0 find u.l0lx. u haf fun eating lunch. cya s00n.! ussimi. d0 u? l0lx.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
16:32
%$@#(&^
mel nid s0me ice pack t0 c00l her d0wn.! boy faster get mi s0me.! l0lx. =)) hahas. i dun like c00kie b0x. lifes nt fair. =D y she can n i cant. hmph.! i'm jealous! =PP nahz. i'm kiddin. at least i'm second n shes neither first nor second. =P n0 c00kie b0x 0n tt dae h0h. *mels prayin hard* l0lx. remember t0 tell mi by sundae k? hahas. i'm a happie ger now. =P c00kie box. hahas. h0pe i din cos u to get ani sc0ldin. s0rrie f0r explodin ur hp.! real s0rry.!!! i'm feelin guillty. but.. i'm happy.! =)) n i haven step into 'our' place wif anione else yet.! n i wun. unlike
ahem! kiddin la.! okies. u haf fun. i'm glad t0 hear the side 0f ur story. kn0win y we din msg n stuff.! * mel screams.! u shld haf tell mi earlier mahz.* but nvm. kn0win it n0w aint t00 late either. i h0pe. u shld haf get a bl0g.! =PP drink plenty of water hoh. the weather is hot. take care.! d0esnt the 2 sentence sounds familiar?
oh my love
my fren i will never erase the memory of u.... =PP
okies. guess u din read the previous entry. nvmz. juz read it when u r readin this.
CNY visiting is fine. but it aint exactly great. c0s tats when i realise i had s0 mani pple t0 acct. t0. everyb0dy is askin b0ut u.! askin where r u? y r u nt here.? this feels s0 t0ugh. i dunn0 h0w t0 explain. where t0 start. wad t0 say. s0 i juz took it tat we r ok. g0in 0n fine n stuff. and tats when i kn0e i'm wr0ng. c0s 1st i'm lyin to myself. 2nd. i gt to cont acting. c0s guess wad dey sae next.?! see la ur young cuzzie gt bf le. u all ar... and yeps.i can't actin. actin as though i rrly still had him. disturbin all my cuzzie n stuff. -sigh- i am such a big lier.! big fat lier.! but i dunn0 wad else t0 d0. n i realised i hadnt tell grandma bout us. w0nder wad will happen if i tell her. as u kn0e. she loves u la.! my aunt asked,why din ur fren c0me and bai nian? like hell0.~! i'm dumbfounded.
m0m's nt helpin too. she told 1 of my aunt tt we "blow" le. she said c0s we wanna study n stuff. guess wads my reaction? i said. if ya dunn0 anithing. juz keep quiet.! next, its juz puppy l0ve. i was like. if it was,why wld it last f0r a yr plus. guess my m0m was sh0ck. and she said baby l0ve?! wa. m0m.!! pls dun sae anim0re. it aint helpin ur daughter.! i'm feelin m0re den enuff hurt. stop rubbin salt to the wound.! i dunn0 y my reaction is s0 big. perhaps, its cos the past meant alot to mi. now tt ur f0ne went f0r repair. i guess our msg will be deleted.? n0 idea. but to u,d0es it matter.? d0es it repersent tt u shld haf a new beginnin?!
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
21:20
this g0nna be a rather short entry c0s g0nna g0 t0 cuzzie hse.! =D l0lx..
ehh peeps actuallie u can skip n dun read this entry c0s its f0r him. =))
boi. i hope ya din misunderstand mi. its nt tt i am the 0nly 0ne hu will t0lerate. sigh. hope u dun get mi wrong. i will tok to u bout it after new yr k? but if ya insist on tokin bout it now. g0 ahead n msg mi. i'm fine wif it. =) i dun wanna spoil each 0thers m00d c0s 0f this.! s0 yah .! enj0y.! ehhs h0pe u aint angry c0s 0f wad i say k?! c0s u used to nt replying mi when u are mad. guess u r bz. juz reply mi when u r free ba. cont smilin.! h0pe ya had fun watchin m0vie ytd.! take care.!
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
19:00
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY~! =D
pon sch todae to go back kcp. guess i din regret it at all. hahas. at least i had fun n i enjoy meetin my frens.! =PP l0lx. whee.. kcp r0x.!! =)) hmm went 0rchard wif jf and yw after the celebration.! hahas. went to shop n buy stuff.! mel screams * i bought a pair of PINK ear rings.! * like hell0.~!~!~ hahas. PINK. -.-" hahas. hmm jf and yw b0ught s0me stuff t00. hahas. had fun wif ya gers. guess wad?! i saw mjc peeps at PS.! miracles huh. s0 s0me mjc peeps do go out after all. but they aint my grp of frens. nt my kind.! =( went carrefour later on. hahas. drop by to meet kelvin.! =P 0h yesh.! d0es ani0ne of u drink ur drinks in a supermarket b4 payin? n g0 t0 the c0unter wif an empty drink can?!
hmm boi hope u had fun todae.! hahas. you ren lao le. yc, val thanks f0r being dere f0r mi just n0w. rach thanks f0r the grp hug.! jf, yw thanks f0r listening to mi. guess i'm nt the onli one wh0 will feel tt wae if dey r treated like tt. i'm thinking. rrly thinkin. guess u din knoe wad happen after i walk awy. wheres the courage tt i needed.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
08:49
went out wif jess wanting and ky ytd. went 0rchard t0 buy stuff. hmm lets see. i met 4 mjc peeps dere.! miracles huh. hahs. aniwae we frm taka walk to paragon den to heeren den to centrepoint den to far east den back to plaza singapura. i nearly got killed twice can. as in rrly
get killed la. first, went i was at j8. i was bout to cross the road den this car zoom by mi.luckily i step back. den ytd. mi, swt, jess was about to board the train. n i was halfway in le. den the door close. den the 2 gers pull mi out. if nt i will be cut int0 half le. -g00dness- w0nder will dere be aa third time. =/
aniwae jess met ken for dinner at ps. den me and swt went secret recipe.! whee~ hahas. tok to u a while on the fone. i'm happie. hope i din get ya mad or sth.
if ya peeps dun wanna read thepart after this its okies. cos its actuallie meant onli for u,boi~
i'm nt demandin its juz tt the pic rrly mean alot to mi. perhaps u might nt knoe hw important it
is to mi. i rrly wan it but i shall nt ask.cos i'm afraid. i shall wait till u gif it to mi. its decided.
s0metimes,n0 matter where i am, tears wld juz fl0w 0ut frm my eyes. u pple might tink i'm crazi, i'm mad, i'm emotional. wadeva. but u pple will defintely not knoe sth. how difficult it is 2 let someone go. cos i'm alwaes get kicked back to square 1. u might still ask y i'm holdin on. its cos i cant bear to let u go. inside it still hurts. ders still so many "do u still.." tt i wanna ask. but i'm afraid. afraid tt u might find mi irritating, tinkin y i'm still pesterin u. afraid tt u might nt wanna tok bout it anymore. afraid tt u might get irriated n piss when i tok bout it. afraid of this n of tt. some ppl ask y did u all let it go when u all still love each other? i dunno. y u all make such a simple thing so complicated? i dunno. in the beginning of all these, y do u all make ur lives so miserable,getting eacth other upset? i dunno. y cant u all juz get back n both of u will be happie once more? i dunno.
i dunno.i rrly dunno. perhaps wad swt sae is true. a onlooker might juz see things better n tt perhaps we nid time alone. but by givin us time alone will u realise tt after all these u r still missin mi or will u realise tt ur freelings for mi r all gone. haiz. i dunno wad to expect. sometimes when i ask u stuff n u gif mi the ans i dunno. i rrly duno whether izzit u din wanna tell mi no cos u dun wanna hurt mi or u rrly dunno. stuck between a yes n a no. dere r too many knots in me tt is left untied. i wonder r u reading this. i hope u r still readin my blog. if possible, tell mi whether u read this entry k? thx.
Saturday, February 05, 2005
11:17
-yeps- i was a notti ger ytd. sign out of sch at bout10 plus supposedly gg to sp.! hahas. =PP went back sch f0r ogl interview. was supp0se t0 plan 2 dry and 1 wet games~ sianz. h0pei din screwed it up. met swt edwin after.! g00dnesss i'm like s0 happie can? finally i'm the real mel agn! crappin luffin n lamin. wasnt exactly like tt in mjc. perhaps c0s dey gt different pers0nality ba. but still my darlingx n dear in mjc r0x.! =)) ha. went t0 walk ard. findin stuff t0 buy. thanks boi for makin mi crack mi head. l0l. kiddin.! val j0in us f0r dinner. went f00d junction t0 makan n tok.! n i learnt new lame j0kes.!! its s0 damn farnie can.? =PP i rrly had fun wif dem! its been 1mth and 4 daes since i went out.! =PP hahas. its been the happiest dae of my week.~! whee~ thanks peeps f0r goin out wif mi.! reach h0me b0ut 11?! and i'm g0in 0ut wif swt agn later.! yeahs.!! but i gt to finish mi hwk first. =/ jess meetin us later too.! whee~ just realse i still gt the voice mail u send to mi the other time. listening to it. perhaps i'm lyin to miself. wearing the ring perhaps i'm lyin to miself. settin "tt" as my wallpaper perhaps i'm lyin to myself agn. but i guess i shall juz c0ntinue lyin.
b0i~ h0pe ya enj0y urself at bugis ytd! =)) mm take care n cya s00n. n u r never al0ne.! =D
SLJRYEK~ r u all bringin ur the 0ther half t0 SAJC funfair?!
Thursday, February 03, 2005
17:47
juz reach home. s0 tired~! wasnt in the mood to attend lessons the wh0le dae.!! felt like pon-ing sch.!! l0lx. and guess wad? i manage to get into the second round of ogl interview.!!! c00l ehs~!~! l0lx. =)) wish mi luck f0r the interview tml.! h0pe i dun get kick out. -.-"" hehe. mm my wh0le klass is s0 dead t0dae. every0ne either pon or st0ne during lectures.! hahas. mels s0 b0red. she wanna g0 0rchard.! l0lx. yes.~! i'm whining.=PP g0nna meet swt tml since s0me1 rejected mi.! hahas. kidding la~! i nid t0 g0 0ut. c0ming h0me after sch aint my thing.! i nid t0 g0 n watch movie n walk n relax.! ha. mel decided to keep her last pr0mise t0 u.! and tats t0 be happie. s0 boi~ ya be happie t00 k? if we r meant to be. we will eventually be together. s0 yah. tats all f0r n0w.! =))
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
18:15
had cca todae.~ it was kinda fun n boring? no idea. went to kovan wif shuyi after my cca. went dere to walk ard. good thing bout today was i dun nid to do GP presentation.! *mel smiles* haha. hope u r feelin okie. wonder u recive my sms nt. -.-" i cant wait for 8 feb.! can g0 back sec. sch00l.! den can meet SLJMRYEK agn. n u too. mels hopin for a miracle to happen. l0lz. never mind bout tt. mel wondering she shld go back sch on this fridae mahz. shld she? hahas. oh yah.! mels dyin t0 g0 0ut. hmm h0pe t0 talk t0 u later. take care.! uoyginvoluoyginssimllits
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
20:32
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter,
I taste the tears
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end
if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you
i'm bloggin in sch~ hahas. first time siaz. supp0se t0 haf lunch now but i'm nt eating. hahas. hmm goodess ussimi. errmms can u tell mi whether things will ever go back to the past. mels being stubborn now. shes still holdin on. *slap her* -.-"" wadever. if his feelings still dere den wheres the probx now. as wad cat. saes, if deres a problem try to rectify it. relationship might juz strengthen. if deres rrly no hope. den juz let it go. juz learn from our lessons. its juz part of life. but. sometimes easier to say den done. -sigh- gtg n0w. type more later.! i'm waiting for the reply. hahas. sianz. hope i dun screw up my ogl interview later.! =))
22:17
roy~ hmm d0es ur msn nick refer t0 mi.? s0rrie. if i sound harsh the 0ther time.but wth. if ur nick aint referrin to mi now den gd for mi l0hz. but if it is. i gt n0 c0mments. s0 yeah. hahas. if u r still angry wif mi. i dunn0 wad t0 sae le. 0ther den. frens? n errrm c00l d0wn. juz dun wanna bec0me enemies n stuff la. if u read this. s0me h0w 0r rather let mi kn0e we r still frens k? if u
ch00se nt t0 ans den s0 be it ba. take cares.
t0dae was great.? results was okies. juz quite disappointed wif emaths. tats all. n guess wad?! after 2 freakin l0ng years i pass my amths la.! i'm s0 happie can. hahaas. after tt i went ps t0 watch sh0w wif gal. hide n seek.! nice sh0w! g0 catch it.! its unpredictable. l0lx.kinda la. i had fun gg out.!! hahas. i'm glad i'm nt f0rg0tten c0s l0ts 0f peeps msg mi gd luck n ask mi b0ut mi grades. s0 yeahs i'm happie. but my gd gd fren din msg mi la.! hahas. perhaps he is angry. but its okies.! =D l0lx. t0 all th0se doin o's this year. jia you.! t0 th0se wh0 r sad and disappointed. press 0n and l00k f0rward.! c0s at the end 0f the dae its ur 's' level cert. tt matter most. jia you.! and smile. i'm tired. i'm nt havin enuff slp.! hahas.ytd was fun.! great.! whee~! oh yah we reached sch bout 2 hours earlier and we toured round the wh0le sch la. hahas. it feels gd to be back.
nich0las~ dun s0und s0 sad la. cheer up a little. ur lame partner is here t0 lame wif u le.! hahas. take l0ts 0f care n cyaz s00n.! better get int0 mjc h0h.! i wanna see u dere.!! l00kf0rward. dun l00k back. u did ur bez! =D at least sth happie happen t0 u t0dae.
shuyi~ hahas. h0pe t0 cyaz tml.! i miss u la.! l0lx.take l0ts 0f care. =)
galvin~ did i manage t0 cheer u up a little? hahas.u owe me a meal h0h.! h0pe ur frens din misunderstand us. aniwae i enjoyedthe sh0w.
SLJRYEK~ well d0ne peeps. i guess everyone is happie wif their results.! h0pe u all will get into the jc or poly u wan to.! l0ve ya peeps n cya s00n.!=D tyhanks f0r ytd. it wad fun.!! hahas.! thanks f0r helpin mi throught this time.! take care.!
* weird c0l0ur c0mbi*
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hahas. the reason is simple. dere r lotrs of peeps at my hse now. we gonna watch showtill tml morn? hahas. den breakfast. den results. wonder how will i fair. but i'm nt gonna tink bout it. so yeah. jf.foo.jess.ken.yc.rach. r like watching sh0w n0w? n i'm happily bloggin n chattin.! =))
okies. life s0 far has been okies. my frens r dere f0r mi. thanks peeps.! i guess i juz nid slighly more time. perhaps juz a little bit more n i will be totally okies.! yay-ness.! thanks pple.! did nth much todae. stone around at home. watch tb. yeah. and tot of some things. but yups. i'm nt gonna allow sadness to invade mi.! hahas. its my policy f0r n0w.!!! whee~!~! i wanna g0 play p00l.!!!! i still wanna play.! hahas. wanna watch m0vies t00.!!! *mel screams* single life ain tt bad afterall.!!! hahas. guess tats f0r n0w.! g0nna j0in dem le.! cyaz.!
nich0las~ i dun like the rat h0h. u evil.!! l0lx. 0kies. gd luck f0r tml n take care.!! thanks f0r lamin wif mi.
shuyi~ i w0nder hw u r feelin n0w. h0pe u r okies. tok to u s00n n gdluck.!!!
galvin~ heys.! tml will be a gd dae f0r ya.! every gdbye is a less0n t0 be learn. s0 remember! cheer up boi.! ur frens will alwaes be dere f0r ya. take care n gd luck! cyaz.!!!
swt~ oh man.! i miss u.! y r u nt here.!!! hahas. okies. cya tml.! gd luck n god bless. h0pe u enj0y ur cruise.! =) cyaz!
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11:36
jf.! thanks f0r all the advice n stuff.! take l0ts 0f care.!
jess.! thanks f0r acc0mpanyin mi out. u get my mind off stuff n i enjoyed myself.!
yc.! thanks f0r helpin mi pack all the stuff. had a gd tok wif ya t00.! and remember the cds.! thanks ger.! help mi thank ur boi boi too k?!
shu yi n galvin.! thanks f0r all the care n c0ncern. i'm fine. s0 dun w0rry b0ut mi. and u 2. betta s0rt things out s00n ya. dun make mi w0rry.! =))
nich0las.! hahas. thanks f0r ur lame-ness la. it gets my mind 0ff stuff t00.! h0pe u aint late in meetin ur frens t0dae.! =D
roy! as i said nt a th0usand s0rries wld d0 anithing. but i guess i shall learn t0 f0rgive n f0rget. it aint ani0nes fault.! but still, i wun be able t0 f0rget wad ya did. u kn0e i hate guys playin wif feelins n givin false h0pe. but i guess ya did tt unkn0wingly. n it hurts al0t. and it neber occured to mi tt u will be the one. aniwae from now on, mean wad ya sae.! n every gdbye is a less0n t0 be learnt. aniwae thanks f0r all the mem0ries u gave mi. n as wad c00kie b0x sae. your right ger will c0me at the right time.! s0 all the bez.! =D w0 bu za0 hu tian chang di jiu. wo zhi zao hu chen jin yong you. s0 yah. thanks f0r the 1 yr plus. its been the bez time 0f my life.! n tats f0r sure.! all th0se mem0ries will be kept cl0se t0 mi n n01 will be able t0 take it way frm mi. thanks boy. 0ne last big bear hug.! -huggies- enj0y ur life.! n haf fun.! the next time i see u. i want t0 see u smiling. leadin ur life the way it shld be.! perhaps, wif the ger tt is rrly right f0r ya.! as f0r mi, i'm g0nna m0ve 0n wif life.! s0 dun pull mi back 0n the bridge tt i'm walkin. lastly, g0d bless n take l0ts 0f care.! n f0r the past 1 yr plus, i juz wanna kn0e let ya kn0e tt i rrly l0ve ya.! but fr0m n0w, i'm g0nna start a wh0le new life n a brand new mi. 0h yah! n c0ntinue searching f0r my guy.! =D cyaz.!
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10:17
this entry is up to u pple whether u want to read or not.
s0 here it g0es,
u r such a ^&*(). i gt n0 w0rds t0 describe u. my heart is numb.! i was very angry n sad. but swt calm mi down so i dunno wad to type now. shall update when i feel the same again. thanks swt.!
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23:08
juz h00k 0ff the f0ne wif him. g0nna meet him in sch tml.! whee~! bef0re tt i'm meeting jess t0 g0 t0 the CPF b0ard t0 get her singpass d0ne. g0nna g0 wild wild wet tml. but it seemslike very very little pple is gg. s0 i dunn0 h0w le. sianz. tml den decide ba. =)) tats all.
b0i~ yeps juz h00k 0ff the f0ne wif ya. nt v. happie t0 kn0e tt u aint havin the m00d f0r anithing. rather w0rried. but i bleaf u will get 0ver it s00n. i guess guys n gers tink differently bout the msg-ing stuff. but i'm glad to kn0e b0ut tt. baby. chill k?! i kn0e ya did tt f0r the gd 0f ur br0. nid a listening ear juz call mi. i din exactly understand wad ya mean by n0 faith. but i din dare t0 ask. dunn0 y. guess the w0rd is rather sensitive. i dunn0. n0 faith in us or no faith in wad. i guess todae had to be the dae tt i tell u he resembles u alot tats y i felt tt way. but i guess mi feelin tt way was a wrong move. a very big mistake. a mistake tt br0ught mi l0ts 0f regrets. tats y he will neber be my guy. i will neber like him. he juz aint u s0 wad if he resembles u. it means nth n0w. was rather sh0ck when ya sae tt she resembles mi. but guess tats wad i felt the 0ther time. s0 its alrite. i cant sae much. s0metimes i rrly w0nder if we will ever be back agn. and where d0 i stand in ur heart. i dunn0. guess u nid time. d0 u? tats y i din ask. din mention anithing. morever u said tt u dun seem to be in the mood for r/s or sth like tt. s0 yeps. but b0y i will still be dere. s0me0ne wh0m u can tell ur w0rries t0. i miss u badly. will my dream ever c0me true? or will we remain frens 4eva.
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16:30
HAPPY THINKING DAY.! =D
yepz. i'm in sch bl0ggin agn.! =))hahas. i'm waitin for ogl meetin to start at 520pm n my less0ns end at 245pm la.!
okies. everything has been gg on smoothly todae other den i "exploded" durin chem less0n. hahas. it reminds mi of the time when i tok back to mrs yap when i was in sec 2.! l0lx. its been a few yrs since i did tt. -.-"" this time i was kinda raise my voice at my klassmate. but it wasnt exactly my fault c0s she kinda blame the wh0le klass f0r being n0t responsive n stuff when we say it was okies la.! irritating. but wadeva, she aint worth mi getting mad for. hahas. onli my close frens n him r worth mi getting mad for. -bleahz-
i w0nder h0ws things gg 0n f0r SLJRYEK. =)) h0pe dey r fine.! =D and yeps sch end at 930 tml.!! whee~! after tt i'm g0nna play badmint0n n out wif my CG.! yeahs. i dun wanna stay h0me the next few daes, s0 peeps ask mi out if u nid accomapny.! i nid a break frm sch.! =P
guess tats all f0r n0w. shall bl0g m0re later.! 0h yeah.! i scored 0 for my chem test.. cosss.... i wasnt in sch. h0w dumb rite.! -.- g0sh.!
b0i~ dun get mad 0ver mr w0ng k? nt w0rth it. calm d0wn.! 0h yeah. all the bez f0r tml t00.! hahas. jia you.! (d0esnt this remind u 0f s0me0ne else t00.?!) n i still wana g0 0ut h0h.! -bleahz- * g0sh. mel is gettin naggy n err irritating?!?!* hahas. 2 m0re daes till ur test end. i shall help u c0untd0wn.! =Pp h0pe t0 t0k t0 u later. f0r n0w, c0ntinue muggin hard.! MLR.! i i u.!
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17:41
galvin~ thanks f0r tt tip. hahas. it helped. =P s0rry din meet u and claresta during lunch.! cya peeps tml.!
shu yi~ darlin.! did 'my courage" did any magic? anyway i bleaf tt this will be 0ver s00n.! s0 hang 0n.! n keep tt smile 0n ur face. nt the fake smile h0h.!
boi~ hmm hang 0n n jia you.! test wld be 0ver in 3 days time n u can start playin le. study hard h0h. dun let urself d0wn.! =D aniwae, i dun haf much faith in myself la c0s i kn0e i kinda screwed up my o's. s0 yah. juz h0pe miracles will happen.! =)) 0h yah.! i still wanna watch my hide n seek sh0w.! l0lx. kidding.! hahas. sry din wake u up t0dae.!! 0h yeah.! u brighten up my saturdae.!! hahas. =)) t0k t0 u later.! take care! h0pe u manage t0 buy ur stuff.! as usual u make mi smile.! =D !stunekilunissim cyaz s00n.! =)
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15:59
ha.went to meet the gers to go SAJC fun fair. met jess dere.! hahas. =) spent m0st 0f my $$ 0n f00d. saw the 2 tallest man on earth dere agn.! next, we went to jf hse to pack her chalet stuff. and den we took a cab down to my hse. after mi hse, jf swt jess mi yc n sherman took cab d0wn t0 white sands. n i gt n0 idea why the driver drop us off at the park. -.-"" l0lx. after tt we met russ and ben. at hmm cold storage or izzit NTUC.? ahh.! i cant remember.! -.- next stop. chalet.! ( on the way we dere we were tinkin all the movies tt start frm A and all the way to Z ) the m0ment i reached dere i was blued to the stone chair.! s0rry peeps.! i onli had wif the clearin up. feel kinda bad but i'm damn tired la. played tai dee alm0st the wh0le nite t00.! oh yah.! b0i.! i was a gd ger k! c0s i din drink last nite.! hahas. =)) was supp0se t0 take a cab back h0me.. but.. i end up stayin 0ver! at least i had fun.!but i'm s0 g0nna flunk my ec0ns test la. haven study yet.! =x went h0me wif jess early in the m0rn. yc and rach left wif us t00 c0s dey nid t0 g0 t0 church. n i'm feelin kinda grouchy?! c0s i dun haf enuff slp last nite.!! p.s. i tink rach jess n me slept the m0st. -.-"" the air c0n was t00 c0ld la.! s0 yah. =x came h0me and slept fr0m 10 - 1 but i'm still tired.! s0rry br0 f0r screamin at u juz n0w.! hahas. i'm h0me al0ne n0w. all 0f dem went f0r buffet.! tink tats all.! g0nna g0 d0 my w0rk le.!
yc~ thanks f0r the tee shirt. will return u another dae.
sljrye~ thanks f0r ytd.! i had fun! cya gers 0n thurs.!
boi~ all the best f0r tml c0mm0n test.! hmm cya s00n.! hahas. take care.! uoyssim. n u did ur best ytd.! =)) hahas. oh yah. thanks f0r tt "morning call" l0lx. =PP
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20:30
gers~ hmm cya peeps tml.! dun be late n take care. -hugs-
shuyi~ i haf faith u will b readin this s0 yah. n0 matter wad ur decision is i will support u.! f0ll0w ur heart.! d0 wad ya tink is right. if ya nid a listening ear juz gif mi a call.! =)) take care.! -hugs-
boi~ as usual i had a great tok wif ya. u never fail to make mi smile.! =) okies. i shall nt slp forever cos i wanna see u.! =) h0pe u mean wad ya sae on the fone ytd. ( d0 u still remember wad ya sae?!) l0lx. =Pp haf a gd rest k? and all the best tml.! jia you.! haf s0me faith in urself man. u can make it de.! wif s0me MLR magic everything will go well. i hope. =)) mm msg mi when u r d0ne.?! take care boi.! cya.! IIU. -hugs-
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20:40
gal~ dun tink s0 much le. relak.! deres a reas0n f0r everything tt happen.
jf and jess.~ get well s00n.! ha, cya peeps on sat.! take care n miss u.! drink plenty of water.!
wt~ i shall nt be bias n type u sth.! h0w's life?! miss ya n take care.! shall we haf a SLJM outing s00n? hahas
b0i.~ i dunn0 wad t0 sae other den.. i cant stop tinkin bout u. if i had a choice i wld ch00se t0 slp f0rever. c0s its only when i'm slpin i can dream of u and mi. aniwae cya s00n.! haf a gd rest.!!! dun feel s0 tired le. rest early.! =)) h0pe t0 meet ya errmm tml.? hahas. *dreaming*
ahhh..! wanted t0 p0st s0me lyrics. but it will make this entry super l0ng. s0 f0rget it.! -.-
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11:28
reached home bout 8 plus ytd. s0 late la. den was havin a headache. and as usual i went to bed w/o eating a panadol. n guess wad happen.? i woke up at 3am t0 eat a pandaol c0s it hurts alot. so yah i onli had 2 hours plus of slp.? kinda tired now. tonite still gt the praying thing at 12 midnight.! =P ha. sigh. i dun tink i'm g0nna g0 f0r d0uble t later c0s my left leg has been hurting since ytd. i h0pe i din pull ani muscle. =/ ha.
hmm i dunn0 wad else t0 bl0g le! s0 gers.! can tell mi if we gg wet and wild tml mahz? c0s i'm nt gg sch. tell mi the details k?! thanks.! =))
boi~ i had fun tokin to u ytd. thanks f0r brightening up my dae! =)) l0lx. u take lots of care. h0pe t0 cya real s00n.! =D all the best.! n i guess dis entry shld be happier rite?! oh yah. last yr everydae was a vdae.! hahas. u kn0e wad i mean.! =)) tok to u later. miss ya.! happie studying.!
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sec1- went 0ut wif l0ts 0f gers n only 1 guy(russ) t0 watch s0me0ne like u.
sec2- after x-country went out wif jj and frens to food junction
sec3- after x-country? went wif wei ch00n. wanting. jinfen. jess. syed. clar. n l0ts m0re t0 j8 mac den jess hse.
sec4- went 0ut wif my one n only boi. haha. it was great.!! =D
J1- hmm kinda dateless. s0 went 0ut wif ger frens.!
oh yah happie 1 yr t0 wan ting n edwin.! jia you.! remember if u all r unhappy bout some things tok this out.! dun keep it to urself.! take care.
hahas. boi. i'm such a gd morning call person rite?! l0lx. hmm u take care of urself h0h. n study hard.! c0mm0n test round the c0rner le.! oh yah.! play hard t00.! i h0pe to cya on the 19 but i kn0e u gt RP thingy s0 yeps. =/ tok to u s00n.! miss ya l0ts.! =)) jia y0u.! i'm glad ya trust mi. =) s0rrie if i s0und fierce. but i'm innocent. n0 idea why ur fren did tt. but its okies as long as u trust mi. =))
tats all f0r n0w. shall update another dae. c0s my dad pluck out the internet line at h0me c0s he's repairing his frens c0m? i dunn0 la. s0 cya.
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14:24
yeps. ytd was great. i was happie. shall nt elaborate y. went orchard wif jess! hahas.thanks f0r the ride home ger. =)
i'm startin t0 fear rejections.but i'm still nt giving up h0pe. juz a word can make mi feel s0 much. perhaps god is telilin mi tt i shld haf treasure u m0re rite frm the start. and i still dun like c00kie b0x k! the sight 0f "it" juz reminds mi wad happen. damn. but i wun explode. I DUN LIKE COOKIE BOX.!! n i'm nt hating " it" how i
wish fate wld do mi some miracles now.! i love u. miss u. i rrly d0.
had a tok wif my parents last nite. if dey r smart dey shld understand hw much u meant to mi. i mean its s0 0bvious.! -.- n u. dun control mi. cos u cant.! dun treat mi as though i'm ur gf of sth. i dun like it. u will never be him. NEVER.! i shall nt be as evil n d0 wad my parens ask mi t0 d0. c0s dey ask mi t0 tell u t0 gif mi a break.! i aint urs. never will i be.
the heart has the most freedom. it can ch00se where it wants t0 g0.. s0 wheres ur heart g0ing? mine. t0 him.
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16:32
mel nid s0me ice pack t0 c00l her d0wn.! boy faster get mi s0me.! l0lx. =)) hahas. i dun like c00kie b0x. lifes nt fair. =D y she can n i cant. hmph.! i'm jealous! =PP nahz. i'm kiddin. at least i'm second n shes neither first nor second. =P n0 c00kie b0x 0n tt dae h0h. *mels prayin hard* l0lx. remember t0 tell mi by sundae k? hahas. i'm a happie ger now. =P c00kie box. hahas. h0pe i din cos u to get ani sc0ldin. s0rrie f0r explodin ur hp.! real s0rry.!!! i'm feelin guillty. but.. i'm happy.! =)) n i haven step into 'our' place wif anione else yet.! n i wun. unlike
ahem! kiddin la.! okies. u haf fun. i'm glad t0 hear the side 0f ur story. kn0win y we din msg n stuff.! * mel screams.! u shld haf tell mi earlier mahz.* but nvm. kn0win it n0w aint t00 late either. i h0pe. u shld haf get a bl0g.! =PP drink plenty of water hoh. the weather is hot. take care.! d0esnt the 2 sentence sounds familiar?
oh my love
my fren i will never erase the memory of u.... =PP
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CNY visiting is fine. but it aint exactly great. c0s tats when i realise i had s0 mani pple t0 acct. t0. everyb0dy is askin b0ut u.! askin where r u? y r u nt here.? this feels s0 t0ugh. i dunn0 h0w t0 explain. where t0 start. wad t0 say. s0 i juz took it tat we r ok. g0in 0n fine n stuff. and tats when i kn0e i'm wr0ng. c0s 1st i'm lyin to myself. 2nd. i gt to cont acting. c0s guess wad dey sae next.?! see la ur young cuzzie gt bf le. u all ar... and yeps.i can't actin. actin as though i rrly still had him. disturbin all my cuzzie n stuff. -sigh- i am such a big lier.! big fat lier.! but i dunn0 wad else t0 d0. n i realised i hadnt tell grandma bout us. w0nder wad will happen if i tell her. as u kn0e. she loves u la.! my aunt asked,why din ur fren c0me and bai nian? like hell0.~! i'm dumbfounded.
m0m's nt helpin too. she told 1 of my aunt tt we "blow" le. she said c0s we wanna study n stuff. guess wads my reaction? i said. if ya dunn0 anithing. juz keep quiet.! next, its juz puppy l0ve. i was like. if it was,why wld it last f0r a yr plus. guess my m0m was sh0ck. and she said baby l0ve?! wa. m0m.!! pls dun sae anim0re. it aint helpin ur daughter.! i'm feelin m0re den enuff hurt. stop rubbin salt to the wound.! i dunn0 y my reaction is s0 big. perhaps, its cos the past meant alot to mi. now tt ur f0ne went f0r repair. i guess our msg will be deleted.? n0 idea. but to u,d0es it matter.? d0es it repersent tt u shld haf a new beginnin?!
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21:20
ehh peeps actuallie u can skip n dun read this entry c0s its f0r him. =))
boi. i hope ya din misunderstand mi. its nt tt i am the 0nly 0ne hu will t0lerate. sigh. hope u dun get mi wrong. i will tok to u bout it after new yr k? but if ya insist on tokin bout it now. g0 ahead n msg mi. i'm fine wif it. =) i dun wanna spoil each 0thers m00d c0s 0f this.! s0 yah .! enj0y.! ehhs h0pe u aint angry c0s 0f wad i say k?! c0s u used to nt replying mi when u are mad. guess u r bz. juz reply mi when u r free ba. cont smilin.! h0pe ya had fun watchin m0vie ytd.! take care.!
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19:00
pon sch todae to go back kcp. guess i din regret it at all. hahas. at least i had fun n i enjoy meetin my frens.! =PP l0lx. whee.. kcp r0x.!! =)) hmm went 0rchard wif jf and yw after the celebration.! hahas. went to shop n buy stuff.! mel screams * i bought a pair of PINK ear rings.! * like hell0.~!~!~ hahas. PINK. -.-" hahas. hmm jf and yw b0ught s0me stuff t00. hahas. had fun wif ya gers. guess wad?! i saw mjc peeps at PS.! miracles huh. s0 s0me mjc peeps do go out after all. but they aint my grp of frens. nt my kind.! =( went carrefour later on. hahas. drop by to meet kelvin.! =P 0h yesh.! d0es ani0ne of u drink ur drinks in a supermarket b4 payin? n g0 t0 the c0unter wif an empty drink can?!
hmm boi hope u had fun todae.! hahas. you ren lao le. yc, val thanks f0r being dere f0r mi just n0w. rach thanks f0r the grp hug.! jf, yw thanks f0r listening to mi. guess i'm nt the onli one wh0 will feel tt wae if dey r treated like tt. i'm thinking. rrly thinkin. guess u din knoe wad happen after i walk awy. wheres the courage tt i needed.
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08:49
get killed la. first, went i was at j8. i was bout to cross the road den this car zoom by mi.luckily i step back. den ytd. mi, swt, jess was about to board the train. n i was halfway in le. den the door close. den the 2 gers pull mi out. if nt i will be cut int0 half le. -g00dness- w0nder will dere be aa third time. =/
aniwae jess met ken for dinner at ps. den me and swt went secret recipe.! whee~ hahas. tok to u a while on the fone. i'm happie. hope i din get ya mad or sth.
if ya peeps dun wanna read thepart after this its okies. cos its actuallie meant onli for u,boi~
i'm nt demandin its juz tt the pic rrly mean alot to mi. perhaps u might nt knoe hw important it
is to mi. i rrly wan it but i shall nt ask.cos i'm afraid. i shall wait till u gif it to mi. its decided.
s0metimes,n0 matter where i am, tears wld juz fl0w 0ut frm my eyes. u pple might tink i'm crazi, i'm mad, i'm emotional. wadeva. but u pple will defintely not knoe sth. how difficult it is 2 let someone go. cos i'm alwaes get kicked back to square 1. u might still ask y i'm holdin on. its cos i cant bear to let u go. inside it still hurts. ders still so many "do u still.." tt i wanna ask. but i'm afraid. afraid tt u might find mi irritating, tinkin y i'm still pesterin u. afraid tt u might nt wanna tok bout it anymore. afraid tt u might get irriated n piss when i tok bout it. afraid of this n of tt. some ppl ask y did u all let it go when u all still love each other? i dunno. y u all make such a simple thing so complicated? i dunno. in the beginning of all these, y do u all make ur lives so miserable,getting eacth other upset? i dunno. y cant u all juz get back n both of u will be happie once more? i dunno.
i dunno.i rrly dunno. perhaps wad swt sae is true. a onlooker might juz see things better n tt perhaps we nid time alone. but by givin us time alone will u realise tt after all these u r still missin mi or will u realise tt ur freelings for mi r all gone. haiz. i dunno wad to expect. sometimes when i ask u stuff n u gif mi the ans i dunno. i rrly duno whether izzit u din wanna tell mi no cos u dun wanna hurt mi or u rrly dunno. stuck between a yes n a no. dere r too many knots in me tt is left untied. i wonder r u reading this. i hope u r still readin my blog. if possible, tell mi whether u read this entry k? thx.
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11:17
b0i~ h0pe ya enj0y urself at bugis ytd! =)) mm take care n cya s00n. n u r never al0ne.! =D
SLJRYEK~ r u all bringin ur the 0ther half t0 SAJC funfair?!
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20:32
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter,
I taste the tears
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end
if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you
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